Life isnt easy...with school...

Ugg...School's reopen!

OMG!This gonna kill me...

Although my cuti isnt that great but schools is more worse...
Ugg..havent been onlining for a long tym now,and i didnt even know whats goin on wit my friends...especially wit Joanne...my friend is in crisis while im in my home..sleeping!

Homework?
I havent finished my Chemist hwork..ohGod..save me from Teacher Pat!...please!

Anyway,
Its been a crazy but amazingly fun and awkward week...
Especially when I go back to Kg in Kuala Penyu..Its been a while since I went there..
and i cant beliave they got proper roads on the roadway entering my kampung..

Nad just now,
me and my family celebrated Father's day for my grandpa...
and my father is so drunk..

My father is so weird when he's drunk..
he'll start lecturing people when he's drunk...
I'm used to his gaya oredy..
well,since im the oldest,i'll know it when he's drunk...
and ya..
when he starts lecturing..
i'll be the one who's gonna hear it..
not becoz i wan to but i had to..
if i didnt hear it,he'll get mad again..

Okay,done wit the lecturing thing,
hehehe...i gain a new experience!
I went shopping at 1Borneo...on my own..
well,im wit my bro and sis but without my parents..
Oh God,those 5 hrs is tiring but at least i got wat I wanted..
And I almost bankcrupt ow..
I buy a lot of things but not like the rich kids who buys expensive stuff...
coz i still want to keep my money...
ohya,TUnes closed down,
so kesian ow..
i dont know why the close it..
my parents love to shop there...
and now,its gone..huhuT.T

I cant believe I bought a guy shirt for the 1st tym...in CT Mall...
I dont have any experience in doing that..

I hope celine like this...
huhu..T.T..sorry cel if it sucks...

I think this shirt sucks...

Haha...cheers to alat bantuan!

HAHAHA!

Alat bantuan helped me a lot!

Especially the part where I cant shed any tears..I thought I was the only one...
I tot at first that I'm WEIRD and FREAKYbcoz I cant shed any tear...
Rupa2nya ada lagi...hehe...

CHEERS TO
ALAT BANTUAN!

Anyway...
I saw u guys play 'lipat binasa'
But huhu=.=
I didnt see chelsea do the monkey dance...
If i see kan..I'll laugh my heart out...
Maybe cikgu JiMMY datang tue pg kasi diam....
haha...
kesian chelsea...u guys bully her...

The Blues~

Ever been to weekly blues or at least, daily blues??

Ever experiencing it all in one day??

If you have,then you must know how I feel...
Well,
Its been a very tiredsome week for me...
*sorry if my grammar sucks or wrong spelling*

I've been hurt psyhically and emotionally
I hurt my knee because of kawad kaki and standing in choir for too long
Both event didnt give any good to me
Been practicing choir for a long time now,and
it turns out,our choir didnt win any place...
And a team from Maktab Sabah
won the 3rd place
the performance is among the best I've seen la
for Konven St. Francis...Congratz for ur outstanding performance
u deserve no.1,
*i think*hope not because of branding!*
if bcoz of branding,
then,there's no way SMSM gonna win Choir 4 EVA!
i'll die...
and SMK Tansau? u deserve no.2 too....
i like ur performance....

SO,in order to get SMSM title in the choir back,
next year,we'll be the one screaming like hell
and be the one who come back school with a smile...

And today,kena halau from kaWAD team...
it was rather dissapointing....
but what to do?
they are right...they've done kawad practice until "perfect"
so,we cannot just jump into the team without practicing
well,I missed the practice many time because of choir...
But,today they've done their best and it's worth it..
*although I heard rumours that 4A won no.5 title*
what can u expect?Our boys is not cooperative well
they act like silly selfish "kids"

And I've been very aggrassive this week

I make fights instead of peace
I make enemy instead of friends
I make anger instead of solitude-ness
I make tears instead of laughes
and I make HATE instead of LOVE

I was hurt
And no one knew abt it more than God
everyone have been through sadness but never this
I know everyone knew SAD
but never this

Its been a very ups and downs week for me...
I've seen new teachers, new lovers,new rumours,new gossips
*but i aint spreading them*I know they arent true*
but most of all,
I've learned new challenge
new experience
and
a wholesome of
life changing lesson
*which reminds me of choral speaking*

but life must goes on...

every cloud has a silver lining,
look at the better side of life....

Yesterday is history;
tomorrow is a mystery;
today is a gift,
that is why it is called "present"

and lastly,

Stop judging people or you'll never had the chance to love them

Another Malaysia Book of Record for SMSM!

huh! today was stressfully-hot day...Luckily, Redaksi was assigned to take pictures on that event which make us escaped the heat...hahaha....sorry for those who suffer...I really have fun today taking pictures..I never thought that taking would be fun..teehee! Anyway,here's a few snaps of the event..

*ikut tune lagu "ini la barisan kt"*
Ini la barisan kita~barisan gong skolah~

Teacher M A! and the Gangs~Ini la pasukan pemungut Tin..kesian...
*tdk termasuk ckgu Hanis and the other cikgu..sorry,sy lupa nma dia*



Jessie dgn tekunnya..
Gerakan Pengawas of the day

Cat: Bluekz..

Nie la juara bertahan yg berjaya overcome
The heat of the sun today!

Apa yg lawak sangat nie?

Uich,apa yg korang tgk tu?

oi,yg tgh tu..bida..


GENK KARATZ!!!
We made it!
Gio Blur >.<

That's all for now...
BYk lagi but malas mo upload...

STAY ALIVE!

nOW,nOW people..I didn't mean STAY ALIVE,the one in the movie...

BUT..I was referring to ME...Struggling to STAY ALIVE!
Im so stressed rite now..keep thinking if I'd still be in the science stream next monday or Im dead...huhu..
I really ShyT'in FreaKin SUCK in ALL the subject I've taken from MONDAY til NOW...

BIOLOGY,the 1st paper...What I've read from Friday for BIOLOGY didnt even give and support me during the exam...that make me soooooo-freakin-FRUSTRATED...until I totally suck my SEJARAH!....I know,I know...i shouldnt be thinkin abt BIOLOGY during SEJ~but...I DID!

SEJARAAAAHHHHH!!!!! i could have gotten good mark in ESSAYYYY! IF ONLY I DIDNT GIVE THE WRONG ANSWER!..The essay was abt TAMADUN INDUS...bUT 100% of my ANSWER is abt TAMADUN MESOPOTAMIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sob*sob*(TEARS OF BLOOD)

YesterDay was a total DISASTER...I didnt fnish answering BM....yup..Ididnt answer the TATABAHASA part....*What Happen?*... As I was enjoying writing my RUMUSAN and Pemahaman And NOVEL.....

Me: lalalala.....*singin' wit a happy tune*
Teacher Judy : 20 minutes left....
Me : Lalalllllllllll..........WHATTTT?!?!?!?!?!?!
Me (again) : $*%@!%#~%^^$#^#@!^@~!#%%^^$@@!....*20 minutes later*...&%#@!~!&*())?"L*^%$#!........*and the word goes on and on and on and on*

and then Rueben david...ARGHHHH!!! I HATE HIM!!!!
Me : still "^@%$@#$!".....
Rueben DAVID: Jess, apa tema novel?
Me : *ARGHHHHH>>! sdh la org TAKANAN,ko p tya lagi?!
Me : huhu...kecekalan dan kegigihan......*dgn rela nya hati,tpaksa la bg or HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE!*
Rueben : Persoalan?
Me : *tgh PANAS sdh tp bagi jg* ....huhu..Taat kepada Agama...

And then,tym to pass up oredy...after that~
Voices here and there,saying ...."ee,kau dpt ka jwb?" and "eee...susah owh..tdk cukup masa!" and a few more....If I tell,the list goes on forever....

And then...CHEMISTRY...ahhh..At least,ini boleh tlg sy lar~...

During the Exam

O-M-G!!!!
So Damn Hard owh!
I was really Damn Confuse with all the Chemical reaction and things abt Empirical formula and CHO2HO3*or watever that is*...Teacher Patricia told us to go to Xtra class on Thursday night..But it was postponed...
then replaced with Saturday afternoon,then postponed again!replaced on Monday.....
on Monday?! NO CLASS AT ALL!ARGHH!!!Teacher Pat didnt finish teaching us Chap 3 and we didnt even fully understand Chap 4~When going down....bla bla bla....~

4 FAILED SUBJECT CONFIRMED!

and then, today~
From last week lg...This day would be marked as the EXTREMELY HARD-CONFIRM GAGAL-subject exam day... Add MATHs and PSYHIC!

I totally gonna fail ADD mATHS..
the simultaneous equation part? okay....but the one on the quadratic equation and the triangle and square thingy? =>blank oredy...so basically...I didnt jawab 6 question...No. 2,3,4,5,9 and 10...No,12(c)(d) confirm Salah!

5 FAILED SUBJECT CONFIRMED!

Physic...didnt turns out to be extremely hard..luckily~fuh!...can relax a bit..can jawab all but confirm many salah....But at least it is not a tough as CHEMISTRY(the subject that I thought would score me marks didnt turn out to as easy as I thought it would be)....Then Rueben pun blk2 tya again...I feel like he ask me answers in all of our paper...some I lied to him..I said "dunno"..then he said "tambirang!"...ergggghhhh! I feel like slapping him and kicking him and punching him....coz at that time,I was so stress oredy....and he sempat lg call me mcm2..luckily Im patient..he even CURSED me...."shyt kau blk la rueben..haha..."..but I dont dare to say those words during this lent season....

subject for 2morow :EST and P.MORAL...
after doing some exercises on EST..i feel a lil' bit relax oredy....I'll be hoping these subject would give me reasons to STAY ALIVE!haha..kiddin...I just hope that at least there's gonna be subjects that I wont fail...

Bha..p study lu...~toddles!~

Fuh..Edible next week's saturday oredy owh...and we havent done anything...bru mo start this friday...

Activity this month:-
~ EXAM
~ Choir (ee..mo lawan peringkat zon first..ee..punca owh..*a famous word these days..LOL*no more LOL*)
~ EDIBLE ARCHITECHTURE Competition
In the future, Maths Olympian...haha..dont care if we win anything as long as dapat kokum marks..peringkat kebangsaan owh...and the dancing thingy..dont know if it still-in-progress-and-will-be-done or not...k la,ByE!~

ArgH!High StreSS leveL~~

Wow...it has been a long time since I updated my BLOG....huhu...heh...well,not a very long time lar...But still, that's not what my point is...

Argh! I can't believe that...that...that...i'll be having my 1st exam as a form 4 student in 2 more days..and the "BEST" part is.....that the first subject of the day is - Non-other than the famous yet so-so undeniably hard to learn....subject.....
*jeng*jeng*jeng*...BIOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL......
bUt.....Yes..it is*for me* so hard to learn....I hate Bio coz my fear for BLOOD is so hard to control...and yet..I AM STILL STUDYING BIO!..how could this be?!argh!

And I still suck in EST...my most fear of all...PSYHIC!!!...andddddd.....P.J.K?huh...*better not say a word bout it*.....

Why i hate these subject?
EST: coz i suck at writing...and EST is about writing in FORMAL ENGLISH LANGUAGE..@.@....lagi lar saya gila!

PSYHIC: coz until now..I still don't understand what this subject is about.....all those calculating and motion and momentum and water rocket and...wow! slowww downnn...now...what topic r we in?argh!!!

P.J.K: no comment..i don't hate it..I don't love it...Its just that TEACHER LOFTI didnt teach anythin.....that day he promise us to teach about pjk..but guess what?! HE was toooo busy telling about ghost and dogs and dead dogs and bla bla bla.....

Just now,I went for my piano class and I suck at it already...well,just tell me what happen to sum1 who never touch it for 2 week?!*so preoccupied with study until I 4get about it oredy*huhu...I also suck while in the class...I totally ruin "Ponny" and again..my dynamics problem in " Sunshine Rag" haven't been fix...and I miss 3 music notes in "Tango"...fuh! and I'll be having my 3rd grade exam SOON!?....W.T.Heck?!

and earlier 2day,I went in late to PRS and everyone was like staring at me....Well,not everyone lar..but I can feel eyes looking at me at that time..and not to mention,there are juniors there too!..BAD EXAMPLE lar nie cece(me) satu nie...
And there goes the Choir..At least something amusing 2day...hehe...we did Good,I guess?...at least from my ears lar...not from other people's ears...but there's some part that I can't even catch the pitch..fuh! ~embarrassing~@.@

Argh! 1 more days left to study for BIO and SeJ...and i havent study yet!...
kay lar,toDDles Fellow Kind,Supportive and Loyal Readers....~Toddles~
*Maybe I'll be posting another post tonight or tomorrow..or...I don't know when...only God knows...so,sabar peminat...you guys will hear something from me soon..he he~*

My "Friday,The 13th"

Why am I not surprise that my day today is soooo full of HATE?! Why is it full of HATE?! 1. coz it's 13 Feb,Friday.....today.. So what? 1. I have a pretty Freakin' Bad Day
10 Reason Why... 1. I have a sore throat today...My throat really hurt that I want to cut it out! 2. My first day of period... 3. I even ALMOST hate my friends today... 4. I realise that I don't want to let him go....he he... 5. Coz I'm gonna miss him so much. 6. I hope soo much for something that I will never ever get..*squeak*him*squeak*! 7. I'm annoyed with someone today... 8. I AM REALLY ANNOYED WITH SOMEONE TODAY..when I say annoyed,I REALLY MEAN IT! 9. Dust, Dust.....those F*cKin Dust in my house that causes my SORE THROAT! 10.Stress with homework and TEACHERS and SCHOOL!
huhu...our Civic discussion didn't turns out so well...huhu..I'm really having a bad mood today..Sorry guys if any of you are offended by my mood..Well,besa lar...1st day *JUICE* bha!haha...lgpun 2morow is Valentine's Day and i've been single for almost 16 years and that really ruins the mood...It's not that I'm desperate...i don't give a damn shyt about being single BuT the whole thing make me Jealous sometimes...coz I've been hopin' for something that wasn't meant for me,*Dating*!....huhu...I Really Hate this day!

DAMN SHYT F*CKIN YOU,FRI the 13th!

Under construction...

huhu...ma house under construction owh...and ol' those pilakerZ are there...eee.....freaky owh...and the renovation pun yg teda2 nie...my dad completely block the way to the kitchen..that means I/we can't shortcut to the kitchen anymore...We have to pass a room first..I was so frustrated by that..adakah tiba2 mo bt room di tangah2 room?macamana la tue?...Eee....biar la tue..not ma money jg..huhu...dad sy yg suka..yg penting I don't have to pay anything right?

Huhu..mau abis sdh Angpaw lor....this year form 4,got many books to buy owh..mcm la sy nie kaya sgt?...coz when I have to buy books or anything,I have to get money from my own purse...and could you imagine that...huhu..my dad said I have to be independent lor...Tp nasib besa sdh..coz I've been doing so(money from own pocket) since 4 years ago...huhu..tpaksa la save money evry day..dat's why I rarely eat lunch or eat tym rehat in school....not becoz I'm in a diet but becoz I'm in a budget la...

Joanne got home early today and the class was a bit quiet..huhu..and our genk too...walaupun maC bising but without one member,we're short on laughs..huhu...and today..byk kali sy kana *krikk*krikk*krikk*....I feel like a kid owh..so small and tiny....my genk balik2 tdk layan...like Reagan said,"tdk kana layan bha kan"..haha...but it's okay guys....haha..and so penat owh today..got home,then TIDURRrrrrr...ZZzzzzzzz...But at least I manage to finish my Maths hwork..Fhew,Maths hwork is not so hard except the lukis2 and the determine2 part...and I tell what...It was a lot too.....took me 2 days to finish it..hehe...katara betul pa-malas!

Anyway,that's all for today...will be posting some pics of my house under construction soon...hope you guys like and enjoy it...but got to gambar waktu tue pilakerZ sdh pulang lar or they'll get perasan....~toDDleS~

What a Day!

LooKs like aLmosT aLL of our Genk went to Joanne's house that day except for Celynn..huhu..it's all her cousin's fault...huhu...

I've just check ouT our genk's blog...it was design by Celynn and as always,the results is Very impressing evrytime..check this out- our new blog-<http://genkkaratz4ever.blogspot.com/>..haha..it was really cute...Kawaii as Jpanese used to say...haha...

Today is juSt another tiRing day...argH! BoreD at scHooL..wenT to audition for the dance pon tiba2 teda mood...Coz we were teached by our Teacher aka Student,<Corina,Mich,and Myra> which I consider theM as the PRO oneS...haha..weLL,I got to admit,I admire them....so Lecak diz bdan dorang...haha...Lecak smpai blh bend bdn cam Cicak...no la..I mean they r reaLLy proS..haha..LOL...Then,me and Col8 and Leona was like..'okayyyy....this is HARD'...We alMost Quit buT I decided to sTay a Lil' Longer coZ I saiD to Col8..."If I jusT quiT Like This,I might as well quit earlier and StuDy at HoME"...so,me and Col8 got into a little discussion (I don't paksa her la to ikut it and all that BUT maybe what I've said may let them to think that I paksa them) and we both agree that we'll quit if we had to audition again tomorrow coz today's audition didn't turn out to run smoothly...which made Leona to CONFIRMED quit from the auditioN..

But then...we were stnading in the rain with Nuthin' to do as the Dewan was used by the TRIPPINGS to play a lil' soccer...so that's explain why we didn't have nothin' to do...so,I want to confirmed with Corina if me and Colet are out or NoT...so,she kira2....and then she said if me and Col8 didn't quit,then they will have all the members that they need....she didn't actually say that we're in...she just said that 'if kamu tdk quit,then kt cukup org..."so,when I hear the word 'IF', I was like.."okay...make a CONFIRMED statement please, ARE WE IN OR WE"RE OUT?" but as always,I didn't actually say that out loud...it's just me talkin to myself...Eventhough Corina said that me and Col8 joined the dance but I can't be happy just yet....coz we haven't had the full statement from the other terer dancers...so,I'm still clueless about my position right now....huhu...But I oredy sign up for the choir team...So,basically, I pass the audition...
haha..Actually,there is no audition...Ckgu Awang said audition unnecessary if u got good voice but failed to come to the choir practice...So,me , Celynn, Leona and Colette sign up for it...But the other genk don't want to join..eee...sayang owh...

Anyway,
Today kan...byk kali oredy I was caught looking at HIM...and the one who caught me looking is the person himself...and I was like...'shYT,did he notice that?"..and my face was like SOOO RED and I realise that many times oredy Joanne ask me.."ko okay ka nie Jess?"...and I didn't answer her prperly...I just glared at her..haha..LOL.....WeLL,what can I say...I'm totally speechless when I'm embarressed...haha...of course la..siapa la bha yg tdk...Time Chemistry la tue yg byk kali...eee.."SHTYS HAPPENS!"...huhu..malu la sy...Then,Teacher Patty gave us a few subatomic particles exercises about the electron arrangmnt and bla..bla..bla...so at the end of the task,we were ask to tick other people's paper...it's like exchanging paper la...and Leona nie sengaja lagi bg His paper to me...and ask me to give it to him after correcting it but at last, I didn't even give it to him...instead,I ask Leona to pass it to his group's table...hahahaha...wakakaka...And at the end of the lesson,we were ask to line up.. then,his position is parallel to me(is the term correct?hehe..I don't give a damn about Maths right now)..then,Celynn said.."ee..selari owh!"and I was blushing..well,i hope she didn't see me blushing..haha...But a few second before Celynn said that,Cat was calling Oxford to say something about his paper...and I was like..searching for Oxford but accidentally I looked at him...okay,guys...it's just an accident,okay...annnndddd.....He caught me again..looking at him BUT it a mistake..just an accident..hahaha....LOL..

fuh!panjang juga crita nie...rajin owh me...kalu dipantau dri Blog genk lain(ui,ber-BM2 lg owh),only me yg rajin mo taip panjang2...haha...

huhu..better get some sleep now....i'm so tired after all those homework from mATHS to PsyHic to Sejarah NoteS....LuckiLy,no aDD MAths...

~~Just Another DaY at SchOOL~~

Just another day at school….luckily, we only have to stay at school until 1.00 p.m…even though it’s the most little I got to spend time at school…it felt like the day’s never gonna end…But I try to push myself to be strong…argh…I feel so tired…But at least I get the chance to him again today…and tomorrow….and tomorrowwwwww and tomorrrwww……
Leona told us today that there’s gonna be a choir and dance audition…I really want to join the choir…well,it’s for the merits of coz….haha…then I want to join the dance BcoZ I really like to DANCE…haha….even though its just for the performance on Teachers’ Day, but they said they need to audition people again….they say it only limited to 10 dancers only…Well, I really hope I’m one of them…hehehe…got homework again today…had to finish Chemistry and History notes…got to finish Maths exercises….During Moral,Teacher Flavia told us about what we’ll(my class) be doing in the future and about our career….Then,something struck me…I was like thinking by myself and asking “Am I going to University and stand alone and Work someday?huh?me?I don’t think I can do that…it’s just that I’m not matured enough…”huhu…I can’t possibly be working…Okay,I better end this topic or I’ll be stress even more than I am now…
Huhu…I think I fell in love with him the second time…ShYt!...I though I’ll be over him..-like forever…..BUT I went Head over heels on him again…It’s just that he so cute with his uncomb hair…ARGH!I’m so crazy….but I tell you what…To be honest,I really feel like taking picture of him…Now that I’m at home,I really MISS him a lot..God..I Miss Him so much…But I’m quiet sad about something..it just bothers me so much that I can’t sleep..LOL….Its just that I think he only considers me as a friend rather than the girl that likes him…OH God…I really hates this…I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!!!!!I think its because that I was really like Happy-go-lucky with him instead of the previous serious girl I used to be when I’m with him…so,maybe he thinks that I got over Him already…I’m starting to cry now…Tears pouring SlowlY,Down these cheeks…Huhu…So,I think I’m just going to watch him from afar…even though he will have nice looking girl all around him and I’m crying behind him…But that’s okay…at least I had the chance to see him with wind bruising his hair…I really wanted to touch his hair…hahha…LOL…okay,now I really feel weird and awkward when I talked about him..It’s just that when I mention about him…It is concentrated on him and his handsome face…ahhhh…hahahaha…This is SOOOOOO FUNNY……I became a different girl when I talk about Him…I feel sweet,and cheeky,and goofy and girlish…and smiling all that time…haha…Okay…That’s all about me today folks…hahaha…..I will stop while I can or It goes on FOREVER!hahaha...ToTTLes~~~